About the Question, "How do you do x, y, and z?!!!!??

For so long that question has plagued my life, and for the longest it made me uncomfortable, it led me to believe that maybe, I was doing something wrong, and that's why I kept getting that question. From adults, from peers, from people who knew people, who knew me, it was just WEIRD! But now, it doesn't weird me out, at all. The answer is...I just wake up everyday and I do it. I remember being like 4 or 5, and telling my dad that I was going to be a firefighter, a dancer, a doctor, and a singer. LOL. But my dad's response was, "Okay Sweetie! You have to come up with a plan and you can do all of those things." Now naturally, as I've gotten older, I definitely had to refine that list to actually come up with the things that are important to me, and focus all of my time, energy, and resources to be really good at those things. The purpose of that little anecdote was to say that "Go Getter," mentality was instilled in me pretty early, and it definitely fuels me to keep pushing. Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm going to do the things I say I'm going to do, I'm very determined about them, and I normally have a pretty rigid plan as to how they are going to occur. I will say, that I've had my fair share of disappointments, because I made too many plans and wouldn't be flexible about them. But at this point, I'm super flexible about my plans, just not my goals. 

So this next part, is related, but I guess, not 100% related. But that's okay because this is my blog(:

It's really awkward for me to talk about myself. You know when you go to relatives homes', and you've been away living your respective life for "x" amount of time, and you're home for a visit, and you overhear a conversation in the other room, and you KNOW, it's about you. That's what I mean about talking about myself. Whenever that happens, and believe me, it happens often, I come up with all kinds of schemes in my head, to not be present, when the "Kyla, come tell so and so about so and so part comes in." I HATE THAT. I hate it because nothing I'm doing feels spectacular. Not that what I'm doing isn't important or meaningful to me, but in my mind everybody around me is grinding for something, our grinds are all just a little different. So I never fully grasp why people want me to talk about what I'm doing, what I really want to say is...Oh I'm just living in Atlanta, school and dancing, that's about it. There's really not that much to it. At least not to me LOL. Okay...rant over.

All of that to say, go out here and be great y'all. Grind for the things that are important to you, be a person of your word, and be as kind as you can to as many people as you can, along the way. At the young age of 23, that's the way I've decided that my life will be the most fulfilled.

 

Signing Off-

Kyla J

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